Cry within. Meditate within. Dive within.
Your inner achievements will far outweigh your outer imperfections.
After you have finished meditating, you have to assimilate the result of your meditation into your inner system. Only then does it become a solid, absolutely permanent experience that is inseparably one with your existence. If you enter into a quarrel with someone or get into some unpleasant situation before the peace, light and bliss from your meditation are assimilated, then everything can be lost. Not even an iota will remain. Even by speaking with someone you can lose what you have received during meditation. Someone may come up to you and say, "How are you?" and he may take away all the peace, light and bliss that you have received. That is why you should not talk to anyone immediately after you have had a high meditation, until you have assimilated what you have received. Also, you should not eat immediately after meditation. You can move around or read if you want, but you should not eat a full meal for at least fifteen minutes or a half hour. If you are very hungry, though, it is all right to take a small quantity of milk or juice.
Normally, it takes quite a few hours to assimilate everything that you have received during meditation, and during that period you have to maintain the light that you got. How? Through your inner awareness, and by being careful of how you deal with the outside world. However, sometimes it happens that during your meditation you are receiving and at the same time assimilating. Then, when you stop meditating, it is all assimilated.
You can think of assimilation as establishing a lifelong friendship, an eternal friendship, with someone who has come into your life. If peace, light and bliss come into you during meditation and you do not make them your eternal friends, then naturally they will leave you. But if you establish an eternal friendship with them, then your friends will have an opportunity to inspire you, guide you, mould you, shape you and share with you their divine capacities and divine qualities. Again, you have to know that assimilation is not always what the soul wants. At times the soul is eager to assimilate and keep something for quite a few days before expressing it. At other times the soul wants to reveal and manifest the qualities that it receives during meditation immediately or after only a few hours. This expression can be to others, to the atmosphere or to the Universal Consciousness. The inner wealth is like knowledge. One person may say, "Let me learn a little and teach that small amount." But someone else may say, "No, let me learn as much as I can, and then I will teach others."